Okay, say it with me- “BARACK OBAMA 2008!” It’s getting so close! All US citizens 18 and over, who have not already registered to vote, please do so NOW! No matter what your party affiliation is, please vote. Though I have to admit the sight of Sarah Palin makes me cringe. Nope, global warming is not caused by humans at all. We’re gonna sit around and watch the polar bears die while you shoot your moose. Eck… she kicks back the progression of science, not to mention women’s rights (her stance on Roe v. Wade makes me shudder), about 50 years.

I feel completely in over my head this semester. I’ve taken on way more than I can handle- classes (it’s my senior year!), the LSAT and law school applications, and executive board positions in my sorority. I can only hope to trudge through this semester without fucking up too badly. It’s only the third week of classes and I’m waiting for it to be over!

I went up to New York the weekend before school started for my sorority’s formals and it was pretty fun. I discovered this Korean Spa in Flushing, I’m not sure what it was called, but it was pretty much heaven on earth! Ok, maybe not but it was soooo relaxing- two whole floors of hot tubs and saunas to choose from. I highly recommend it if you ever get the chance to go there.

I miss Europe. I know, I was complaining about it in the last post but thinking back on it, it wasn’t that bad. I think I’m having that “I wish I were anywhere but here” syndrome again. Someone please end this monotomy! Oh yeah, Europe photos are waaay overdue but I really don’t have the time right now. Please excuse the slowness of my comments. I promise I’ll try to manage my time better and fit everything in my schedule… and maybe even a new layout.

I haven’t posted in a while cuz I was hoping to have a new layout up before I do. But… as you can see, there is no new layout. I really have no idea what to do. I’ll just wait till inspiration hits me… which hasn’t happened in a loooong time. I feel like this layout was sort of thrown together. Maybe when I go to Europe next month, I’ll be inspired! Speaking of Europe, Spain won the Euro cup!!! What a victory! I wanted to see Turkey in the finals. That would have been an incredible match! Can’t wait till World Cup 2010!

I’m back at home now. I came back about three weeks ago. I decided not to take the LSAT till October. I’m trying to study more during the summer and hopefully I’ll get a good score when I do take it. I Haven’t been doing much else here except watching movies. WALL-E was pretty cute. A somewhat horrifying view of what the future could be like, but the little robot is too adorable. I rented Paris, je t’aime yesterday. There were some cute segments (the Gurinder Chadha one), some touching ones (the Nigerian man part), and some just… truly bizarre (the hairdresser one). Overall I liked it and I really can’t wait to see Paris again for myself!

I realize now how emo I sound in my last post, haha. I’m usually not like that. Don’t know why I’m stressing so much lately. I guess it has to do with people’s expectations of me. Everyone’s always telling me how smart I am but guess what, I’m not. Not a big surprise. It’s like everyone else is setting the bar for me and I have no control of my own life. If I don’t meet their expectations, then I fail. I hate being disappointed so I don’t want to disappoint others. It’s freakishly difficult to live like this.

I only have two weeks until I take the LSAT and I’m wasting time doing this instead of studying. I moved into my friends’ apartment about two weeks ago. I can’t wait till I can go home. One thing that makes me not so depressed now is my family is planning to go to Europe this summer! I miss France so much! I can’t wait till I can be my old carefree self again.

I am so sleep-deprived right now. I’ve been studying and taking exams for the last two days straight with two hour naps in between. This is probably really bad for my health and may be contributing to why I feel so depressed and frustrated right now. I don’t really want to do this shit anymore. I want to be done with school already and not have to worry about anything else and just enjoy my summer. At least I only have one more final. But after that I have to devote every single minute of my life to studying for the LSAT. How depressing. I also need to start packing. I’ll be moving out of my dorm and into my friends’ apartment until the LSAT is over. Packing everything up shouldn’t take too long. I think it kinda scares me how mobile my life is. It’s almost too easy to pack up and leave. It feels like I have no centrality, no place to anchor myself. And that might mean I have no place to call my home. I need to take another nap now before I go crazy.