I am so sleep-deprived right now. I’ve been studying and taking exams for the last two days straight with two hour naps in between. This is probably really bad for my health and may be contributing to why I feel so depressed and frustrated right now. I don’t really want to do this shit anymore. I want to be done with school already and not have to worry about anything else and just enjoy my summer. At least I only have one more final. But after that I have to devote every single minute of my life to studying for the LSAT. How depressing. I also need to start packing. I’ll be moving out of my dorm and into my friends’ apartment until the LSAT is over. Packing everything up shouldn’t take too long. I think it kinda scares me how mobile my life is. It’s almost too easy to pack up and leave. It feels like I have no centrality, no place to anchor myself. And that might mean I have no place to call my home. I need to take another nap now before I go crazy.

I just thought of a new domain name- idyll. I still want a .nu but I’ll have plenty of time to decide on a name since I’m about 700 dollars in debt right now. Sigh. I get my first paycheck this week! I think it’s only about 7 dollars but money is still money, lol. Work officially starts next week. The school I’ll be tutoring at seems nice but it’s in the “ghetto” part of Boston. At least I won’t be walking home alone. There’ll be a couple of other girls there too. The first thing I’ll do when I get my first *real* paycheck is buy some new clothes. But I don’t want to do that till I get back into shape. I was finally content (not exactly happy yet) with my weight at the beginning of the summer but then I got really lazy and stopped working out. I was still okay when I left for school but now all I do is eat and sleep. It doesn’t help that I just ate two oatmeal raisin cookies… My line of thinking is I’ll get my money’s worth out of my dining hall meal plan and that leads to excessive eating. Damn the school for making me pay for a meal plan! Must get back into shape! One last thing- is it just me or did despair.nu disappear for a while?

School’s finally kicking in. I have a ton of reading to do. Yay, at least it gives me something to do. Work hasn’t started yet so I pretty much spend my days doing nothing. I only have three hours of class Monday, Wednesday, Friday and one and a half hours of class Tuesday and Thursday… so yep… plenty of spare time. I spent this afternoon promoting for my sorority. Some people are really rude. They just brush past you when you try to talk to them. But I’m being a hypocrite. Sometimes I do that too, especially when I’m running late. There’s this one kid in one of my classes that always raises his hand to say something either completely irrelevant or just reiterating what the professor said. And he acts like he knows everything too. Kid- shut up! You’re here to learn and if you already know everything, why are you in this class anyway?? I cannot stand people like that. But anyway, rush for my sorority is going good. We had a bunch of prospectives at our informational meeting last night. They all seemed so genuinely interested. That’s a good thing but when we promote, we emphasize our strengths and we tend to omit certain little facts like pledging for our sorority will overtake your entire life for about eight weeks! I was afraid to say anything to them about that in case they become disinterested for that one factor. So for now, life’s good, school’s good, everything’s good.

I’m in Boston. My sorority installs party was tonight. It was ok. I got a bunch of gifts. I’m officially a sister now… yay. I skipped the after-party. It would not be good if I stumbled back into my aunt’s house drunk.

This whole week was messed up. I had no place to stay for the weekend. That was mostly my fault though. I thought I had a place but I shouldn’t have waited till the last minute to make sure. That’s something I need to work on this year. So I initially changed my flight to next weekend till I could move in to my dorm. But that idea pissed a bunch of people off so I changed the flight back to the original day. My aunt finally agreed to put me up for the weekend. Then I’m staying with one of the sisters till I can move in to my dorm on Wednesday. I hate not having my own place or a car here. I’m so helpless without a car! I have a roommate this year. This is gonna be the first time I have a real roommate. Hope she’ll be cool.

The weather back home was so messed up this week. There was a tornado in my area on Thursday. I just came out of the shower and the sky was all black! I thought all my windows were gonna break. I heard the tornado siren and ran downstairs to the basement. Nothing bad happened. My basement flooded. A bunch of flights in Chicago got delayed. I was stuck in a plane for two hours before we took off. It finally landed in Boston at 11:30 pm. That wasn’t so bad. Another sister got stuck in Chicago for two days because of delayed flights!

I wouldn’t mind spending another week at home. I really don’t feel like doing anything besides watching NewS. Damn J-Pop! It’s so addictive. I’ve turned into a stupid little fangirl. I thought that phase of my life ended with the Backstreet Boys in 6th grade, lol. I always get so sad when I leave home. It’s my comfort zone. I like doing new things but I always like going back to something comfortable. Classes start next week. Can’t wait…